Trials & Tribulations
I thought I would go ahead & write a new blog. As all of you know if has been one hell of a month & it's not even half over yet. Gordon & I have endured a lot of heart ache this month… not only this month but this year. But we seem to keep our heads above water & get through it each time just barely.
The baby making is put on hold for right now, there is just way too much going on emotionally right now so we are just gonna hold off. Plus, we are kind of up a creek without a paddle in the financial situation plus I am so freakin bored staying at home all day! I am not motivated to do anything & I just become more & more of a recluse & insomniac. I really need to get myself busy with working & on a schedule again. This Wednesday I have an interview with the County of Orange, so please pray for me. The last time I had an interview for a County job I completely blew it… I was so nervous I just kept rambling on & on & I think that really turned them off. So please pray for me that I keep my composure. I also have another interview next week on the 26th for an Admin position, so we will see how that goes.
I have taken on a project all on my own efforts to scan all of my mom's photos & the woman has like a billion! I have been going through so many memories & it is just so unbelievable. I will see a pic & I will actually remember that day or event & if not that I will at least remember the pictures hanging on the wall or the toys that I used to play with, it is so awesome going down memory lane right now. The only thing that sucks is that I see how freakin skinny I used to be & it depresses me! I was a really descent size right when I met Gordon & then I just ballooned up! I am determined right now to start a diet starting on Monday. I am going to start a diet & exercising routine & I am so determined to do it! So again, please keep me in your prayers for that adventure. I love to cook & I love to eat & we eat really healthy, it's just my portions & lack of exercise that are killing me. I seemed to start gaining a lot of weight when I was working two jobs before we left to Oregon. I sat on my but for 12 hours a day at a desk & didn't go out or anything. I think keeping busy with Bible studies & what not was what kept me fit & healthy, I really miss that activity in my life & hope to get it back. I will hopefully be able to get Gordon on the same routine if I am lucky.
So please keep this little family of ours in prayer… we really really need it right now. We have been going through so many trials & tribulations; it is so hard for us right now.
The baby making is put on hold for right now, there is just way too much going on emotionally right now so we are just gonna hold off. Plus, we are kind of up a creek without a paddle in the financial situation plus I am so freakin bored staying at home all day! I am not motivated to do anything & I just become more & more of a recluse & insomniac. I really need to get myself busy with working & on a schedule again. This Wednesday I have an interview with the County of Orange, so please pray for me. The last time I had an interview for a County job I completely blew it… I was so nervous I just kept rambling on & on & I think that really turned them off. So please pray for me that I keep my composure. I also have another interview next week on the 26th for an Admin position, so we will see how that goes.
I have taken on a project all on my own efforts to scan all of my mom's photos & the woman has like a billion! I have been going through so many memories & it is just so unbelievable. I will see a pic & I will actually remember that day or event & if not that I will at least remember the pictures hanging on the wall or the toys that I used to play with, it is so awesome going down memory lane right now. The only thing that sucks is that I see how freakin skinny I used to be & it depresses me! I was a really descent size right when I met Gordon & then I just ballooned up! I am determined right now to start a diet starting on Monday. I am going to start a diet & exercising routine & I am so determined to do it! So again, please keep me in your prayers for that adventure. I love to cook & I love to eat & we eat really healthy, it's just my portions & lack of exercise that are killing me. I seemed to start gaining a lot of weight when I was working two jobs before we left to Oregon. I sat on my but for 12 hours a day at a desk & didn't go out or anything. I think keeping busy with Bible studies & what not was what kept me fit & healthy, I really miss that activity in my life & hope to get it back. I will hopefully be able to get Gordon on the same routine if I am lucky.
So please keep this little family of ours in prayer… we really really need it right now. We have been going through so many trials & tribulations; it is so hard for us right now.
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